Amigos

Phil and I have been spending so much good time together! Over the last week we went to a concert, watched UFC fights, had a Superbowl party, ran south mountain, ate dinner with friends.... I definitely don't think it gets better than that! It has also been fun spending more time with his friends. I'm not sure why he never wanted to before??? Either way it doesn't matter, I am happy we are now. Marie came and met us for the UFC fights which was fun because she met Phil's friends and Nick's new girlfriend Aubrie. I really like Aubrie, she is pretty and very nice. I am going to the Katy Perry concert with her tomorrow night, probably a good way for us to get to know eachother better. I just have to say though that everything in my life is really falling into place lately!! I am spending so much more time with friends, and I love that because my friends are awesome and I couldnt ask for better ones. I am very blessed to have such good friends, although I need to focus more on Heather because she is very important to me and I often forget to make plans with her. We have all the time in the world, but I know with her having a husband and kids and church and friends....it hard for her to pencil me in too! LOL, we love eachother.

Alcoholics Meeting

The other day at work I had a really nice conversation with a man I work with, who has been happily married to his wife for 35 years. I was asking him questions about marriage and love, and all of his answers were so comforting. He really made me realize that I am so in love with Phillip and I really can see me being with him for the rest of my life. The man I work with told me that God is the reason he has been able to have such a wonderful and lasting marriage...he said its like a triangle with a man and woman being the bottom corners and God being the top corner, what happens when the man and woman try and become closer to God?? They become closer also. Anyways, I had an overwhelming feeling like I really need to start living my life for God and not be as selfish and yada yada. So, I asked him which church he goes to and told him that I would be there on Sunday. Being the first time was attending this church I wasn't quite sure of my way around. They hold their sermon in the gymnasium of a Lutheran church because they don't have their own building being that they are a pretty small group of about 100 people. Peter decided to go with me which I was really happy about because I love spending time with him!! So we follow the crowd of people into this room and introduce ourselves. Everyone is VERY nice and they keep saying "welcome"..... this lady gets up in front of the room and announces the start of the Alcoholics Anonymous meeting! OOPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Peter kicks me really hard and we try to hold back from busting out laughing. We sneak out the back door and realize that it exits out to a garden that has no exit. So were forced to walk back in. We sit down for a minute then get up and walk through the rows of chairs and go figure the only exit is in the front of the room. All the people probably assumed we needed to get outta there so we could go get a drink. Pretty funny. We found the right place though and it was really nice to be there, I'm glad I went.

Alfredo

Over the last year I managed to somehow lose 50 pounds... well, 40 (the last 10 seems to come and go)...either way it has been a huge accomplishment that I sometimes forget to reward myself for. I would guess that 95% of people who diet and exercise in attempt to lose weight fail. I had been trying to lose weight for years and failed everytime. I recently lost that ten pounds that I said comes and goes... but then last night I had the biggest bowl of alfredo pasta. BUMMER! It didnt even really taste that good. Did you know people actually associate eating food with being happy? Our bodies release certain chemicals when we eat that give us happy feelings. Ever notice when you even think about that lil hammie from McDonalds you get this warm, fuzzy feeling inside? Yep, thats the killer right there. I am writing this blog right now because I want to lose this last 10 pounds by Valentines Day. That gives me about a month, which is about the time it should take me if I can lose about 2.5 pounds a week. It sounds to me like I have a lot of time to spend in the gym eh?? I guess I better quiting typing about it and go right now!!! (Exercise also releases happy feelings)

Notorious

This year I am going to work on my relationships. I have always thought of myself as a good friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend, co-worker, etc.... however, when I sit back and analyze that statement it seems as though I could be wrong. Recently it was actually brought to my attention that I am not good at what I have always thought I was. Hard to hear- let me tell you. My boyfriend once told me not to take criticism personally but to take it as motivation to change. Hearing the news was extremely heartbreaking but as hard as it was for me, it must have been much harder for the people in my life who have suffered for my weakness and so this is why I am going to change rather than sit around and cry about it. I also realize that my blog can only go so far, I need to actually take action on this promise. I think sometimes I just get so caught up in my routine that I forget to call people and say "hi" and chit-chat, but it does not mean I have forgotten about them all together in fact they are always on my mind.